Acacia family support helped me through one of the darkest and most difficult times in my life. Back in 2015 when I was around 7 months pregnant with our third child I started to feel really low and really anxious. I felt like there was a dark cloud over me, almost a physical feeling of being trapped in fog and not able to see through. I was overthinking absolutely everything, feeling anxious about everything and I started to shut myself away. It got to a point where I couldn’t get out of bed and I felt like I just wanted to disappear. I felt so alone, so worthless and terribly guilty that I wasn't enjoying what should have been an exciting and happy time.
My husband was so worried about me and knew I needed help, he prompted me to make an appointment to get some support. I was reluctant but I knew he was right and we went together to see my doctor. The doctor was amazing and listened as I sobbed about how I was feeling and how I had completely lost myself in this depression. I explained how much I loved my children and the new baby to come, but how thoughts of ending my life kept creeping in (even though I would never act on them.) The doctor suggested Acacia and from then onwards things started to change.
The befriending service, helping hands at home and later (when my little boy was born) the CBT group work, all helped massively with my recovery. I was made to feel so welcome, I was able to chat with the most compassionate people who understood what I was feeling and reassured me I was poorly but I would get better, there was light at the end of the tunnel. My recovery didn’t happen overnight, but with the support from Acacia, my doctor, family and friends I slowly started to feel like me again.
Since then I’ve had another little boy, that pregnancy and since his birth haven’t been completely smooth sailing and there have been periods where anxiety and depression has started creeping in again, but this time I am well prepared I have support in place that I could access, a supportive health visitor and I am safe in the knowledge I can self refer to Acacia if I needed support.